Summer Denial

I am in complete denial that school is ending in 2 weeks. Maybe it's because the weather has been cool and crisp up until this past weekend (when it all of a sudden felt like the Amazon around here!). Maybe it's because I've been too busy to really think about it. Maybe it's because I can't fathom it. Yes, I think the later is the case. I can't imagine not having any time to myself, my kids around me 24-7 (except for those brief moments when their in camp), my house becoming messier then it is, my refrigerator becoming emptier then it is, and my body becoming un-showered more then it already is. I have not been able to get in the mind set of summer. The lazy days. The 'hanging out'. The 'trying to keep the kids busy so they don't fight with each other all day' mentality.

Oy, and my 10 yr. old, very soon to be 11 yr, old, is turning into a testy, fiesty pre-adolescent. Everything pisses him off, and he won't let anything go! Oy, no wonder I haven't thought about summer. My 5 yr. old, soon to be 6 yr old, however, is doing absolutely phenomenal! Since I started this blog, my ADHD fears have evaporated, and his behavior has been exceptional in school, and at home. He has really turned a corner. But that's another story.

Anyway, back to summer. I have so many things I was planning to do, what was I thinking! I want to empty the garage of all the crap we piled back there, I want to start exercising every day, I want to read a book! Huh, who am I kidding?! This is probably one of the last posts I'll be able to write! It's like some Twilight Zone episode where time stops, and you wake up one morning and 3 months have gone by, the hair on your legs is like 2 inches long, and your clothes are all wrinkled because you've been wearing the same thing all summer, and your head is covered with dreadlocks because you haven't washed or brushed your hair since spring.

OK, I need a plan to deal. Lot's of TV in the AM so I can exercise on the bike and shower (that means me getting up at the crack of dawn - yikes this is becoming too fantastical already!). Day trips during the day and visits to the pool in the afternoon. Separate them as much as possible (which is not very possible) and more TV in the late PM to catch up on 'me' stuff (yeah right, that's when I crash in front of the TV in exhaustion). I just have to remember - the summers go by quick. This is the only summer I'll spend with them when they are 10 and 5. I can never go back. Keep perspective. Keep perspective. OK. The panic attack has quelled. The only thing missing from my master summer plan is the daily pitcher of margaritas at my hip at all times. Ahh, now the summer is feeling way more palatable.